I pick up the phone.
I dial six numbers.
I hang up.
I cannot call you.
I know.
I know better.
I want to be geeky again.
I want to call you and invite you on obscene outings.
-ROLLERSKATING-
I want to call you and invite you roller skating
And have you be pleasantly amused,
Have you decline because of the irony of the adventure
(Not fear of seeing me)
I want you to ask if I am kidding.
I want to say, “No I am not, I am serious.”
I want to call and make you laugh.
I want to hear you smile over the phone wires.
I want to hold your hand and have fun, again.
I miss you.
I miss being happy.
I miss being happy with you.