I DID IT

I did it, again.

I let myself fall. I said yes, repeatedly.

I over-rode the no’s. I let myself feel.

I let myself drop in. I let myself connect.

I wasn’t scared. I was being myself.

I was responding to the invitations of another.

We were co-creating. We were fighting for life itself.

It wasn’t a control maneuver, it was a complete surrender.

Reckless Abandon… It was crazy –

And I remembered all of the parts of me that used to like that.

I remembered that sometimes I like to feel the crazy.

Total Chaos. I remembered what it felt like to be alive.

I needed it. I do not feel guilty. I do not feel ashamed.

It hasn’t ever worked out well & I knew that the whole way through.

Full credit for taking a risk, little me. Full credit. Good Job.

You did what you did & you did it well.

Much Love. Xx